BELIEF...

love me .. believe me 

This feeling I cannot define

This sensation of u being mine

The belief I wanna hold on to

Comes to peace when I look at u

I know of times when my heart

Was shredded and torn apart

But now seems like its new

The times u whisper 'I love u too'

There are times when I know

You find it difficult to show

The love nested in your eyes

Is complete to sooth my sighs

Your like gravity

That keeps pulling me

I wish to let go of all I desire

Cause now yur my only fire

KAAFREEN

the truth again

I miss u so much...

I am trying to be so strong, the feeling...the scarcity of emotions in me...the randomness in my eyes...

They all see me happy...jovial and excited. I dance like a happy body, but my soul is sad. I sing in a melodious voice, but my words are hollow. I smile like a plastic doll,and hide my tears inside me... I make them believe that everything is right...but I know how wrong things are for me... I tell them it dsnt matter...but its u  all that matters...I walk like with an upright mind...but my heart feels the earth...I speak like a confident human...yet the fear overrules me...I say I don't think any more...but the thought process never stops afreen...never...

It kills me sometimes to even think of you not being there...and lo! Yu are already not there...
They tell me to think positively and to flush out all the negativity out of my mind... And then I tell these ppl... Here I am ..look at me all calm and composed...(an impostor posing to be at peace with herself....claiming she has defied all turmoil and come out a winner.)Y ??? Afreen why ??? Does it never ring a bell in your heart? Did u never feel the warmth across my soul to yours... Moments when u told u me u loved me... Did u fake it all or was it just another whim of yours?? To ride with what came at hand... That's what u told me...

How do u define infatuation? An attraction... Or a lure...or a lust that builds in your mind ? And how do u define LOVE?? Am waiting for a reply from u and from YOUR GOD. Trust him do u ? I did to on your trust...but its such a tryst! The complexities you ve built around yourself...its difficult to break them down... And the moment u saw the wall falling u were uncomfortable...insecure...!! Why ? Don't u want to break free ? Or have these complexities become like a fortress for u.... Without which u can't live.....

:)

Did u know you have the power
To draw the life out of me...
Not that I get weaker by the second
Just that magic u work on me...

This feeling of emptiness...void...hollowness...

Its kind of difficult to explain what I am going through...because you have decided to close this chapter in your life and start writing a new page. But I, am still trying to figure out how did the ink end while I was still writing.
I remember it all....every moment I spent with you...every single embrace...every single word u told me...
I dont understand everything...but I did understand that there was something in u that was refusing me. And when the final denial came from u, it broke my heart.

I am not disappointed in love or u or myself...cause I know someday we both will get what we deserve. And until that day I wish to stay with this feeling...the feeling of being U. Not many can cherish that...not many can know that cute little devil in you when you are high....or  the moments when u try so hard to be strong but cant ( and yet u pretend). I just wanna tell u one thing ... "sometimes its just ok to let go and let your feelings rule you"...You dont have to try so hard just to try....just be yourself and its going to be fine.

I learnt something very important from u...that one shouldn't lie...and thats the reason i never lied to you...even under circumstances when i knew you would be angry. I knew my truth would save both my skin and heart. Heart is broken but am sure you know am a good human being. You told me am a dreamer and my dreams are not gonna take me anywhere...i guess they have and they did "they brought me to you"...and once u promised me when there were tears in my eyes "we will fulfill your dreams together". And the next instance when you confided, " I am done trying".... I wouldnt blame you for I have no right to unleash the burden of my dreams on you...You have your own limitations ...unfortunately for me, I dont keep any.

Too serious , too soon
I wanted you to love me
I wanted to be there for you
Like no one else before
Too serious , too soon
I wanted you to love me
It's been a rainy afternoon
Now am staring at the moon
Thinking we got too serious
Too soon......

KAFREEN...

Never Before

Have traveled distances to come to you. Right now you sit just 3 feet away and it seems like 3 decades. Call it my frenzy or call it my arrogance. I don't like you so far away. Each moment seems like a disregard when you're not around. 

However, I wish to understand the layers of emotions my heart goes through. I wanna know now... why is this magic working so well. Why do u create such sensations...why do you make me loose each time I think I've won  you over. I loose myself in your arms...

The way you look at me

The way you hold my breath so close to your chest...

The dreams you weave in my eyes...

The way you kiss me deep and tell me I'm all yours...

I love your touch...the slightest touch of your lips...your fingertips make me loose my mind. I want you and love you LIKE NEVER BEFORE

Time...

I know I pursue time
Like a free bird
And yours is like a captive
In a golden cage
With an era of its own
Am willing to wait
Come what may
Leaving it to fate
All you have to say
Is, " Darling I Love You"

When you want to be alone
Analyzing thoughts that were woven
And beautifully crystal
I want you to share them with me
When your silence speaks yours words
I want to have ears
Than can listen to the unknown
Its time again that reigns
And has been reigning for years

I know I pursue time
Like a free breeze
Like I have never had for
Anyone in the life I lived
The lone self in me
Beckons for a migration
Into a time zone
That belongs to you
It culminates into the spheres
That has to last
For the many coming years...

Tell me for I know not
How to bound myself
Let alone the Time I call my own
My patience withers
And wilts with Time
Should you grant me what I wish for
Or is it Time again that
Shall answer for you....

And now...

Para 1 :

Its a Saturday morning

And am here at my room,

Trying to listen to some music...

To pull myself out of the gloom.

Its pouring outside

As I raise my head and see

Feel like getting drenched,

Then just wanna let it be!

Chorus :

Cause its you on my mind

Cant think anything much...

Remembering and waiting hard

For our time when we can touch

Para 2 :

My friends have called me 

And I didn't bother to reply

I wanna get away someplace

Just you & I

The laptops playing movies you gave me

But it ain't no fun girl

Watching them without you

Is like a minor distraction from this world....

Chorus :

Cause its you on my mind

Cant think anything much...

Remembering and waiting hard

For our time when we can touch

Bridge:

This feelings so strong within

As if the latch has been loose

To relish or suffer this pain

Is left for me ti choose

Cause its you on my mind

Cant think anything much...yeahhh...

Remembering and waiting hard

For our time when we can touch

PS: Baby Wrote this song for u...someday will get the music too...its the way you make me feel... am so in love...have never felt this way before 

Colourblind :)

Feeling Blue,
Well im trying to forget the feeling that i miss you,
Feeling Green,
When the jealousy sweels and it wont go away and dreams,
Feeling Yellow,
Im confused inside a little hazy but mellow.

When i feel your eyes on me,
Feeling fine, its sublime,
When that smile of yours creeps into my mind.

Nobody told me it feels so good,
Nobody said you would be so beautiful,
Nobody warned me about your smile,
You're the light,
You're the light,
When i close my eyes,
Im colourblind.

Feeling Red,
When you spend all your time with your friends and not me instead,
Feeling Black,
When i think about all of the things that i feel i lack,
Feeling Jaded,
When its not gone right, all the colours are faded. 

Nobody told me it feels so good,
Nobody said you would be so beautiful,
Nobody warned me about your smile,
You're the light,
You're the light,
When i close my eyes,
Im colourblind. 

Courtesy : Darius

PS : Not fair love... your love makes me a band of VIBGYOR and see its a beautiful rainbow you have woven around me!!

You are my Angel!

sometimes its the just feeling of you around me gets me so high...

I sit and wait
does an angel contemplate my fate
and do they know
the places where we go
when we´re grey and old
´cos I´ve been told
that salvation lets their wings unfold
so when I’m lying in my bed
thoughts running through my head
and I feel that love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead

when I’m feeling weak
and my pain walks down a one way street
I look above
and I know ill always be blessed with love
and as the feeling grows
she breathes flesh to my bones
and when love is dead
I’m loving angels instead

and through it all she offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether I’m right or wrong
and down the waterfall
wherever it may take me
I know that life wont break me
when I come to call she wont forsake me
I’m loving angels instead 


courtesy : robbie angels